Cap'n Eifersucht. Your bit of jealousy.

Had my cap and gown on, filmed for the news in it, went to a dinner for the top of the class, and it still hasn’t hit me

I don’t think it’ll ever hit me.

Oh well. Goodbye and good riddance, high school.

In the next week, I will be leaving this blog and moving to a new one.

If you want to find me, just let me know.

So today was the last full day.

This is the end of a really huge chapter in my life.

My mom is having me look through pictures to make a scrapbook for the grad party (old people love pictures!) and I really am having a lot of feeeeels. In the past four years, I’ve gone through a lot of changes. Immense changes. I no longer want to pursue music as a career. I no longer want piercings, hundreds of tattoos, to dye my hair a different color. 

In the past year alone, I’ve learned so many things. What it is like to be second best, and have to accept it, be proud of it. I’ve learned how to love, truly, and how to hate. I’ve learned how to move on, and I’ve learned how to protect myself. I know that those around me are learning too. And I know that some are not.

There are so many moments I will remember forever, and so many I will be quick to forget.

I’ve made friends that will last a lifetime, and “friends” I’m ready to erase from my life. 

I am ready to make a lot more changes. I am ready to grow and learn even more.

I am happy. 

OH MY FUCKING GOD I’M GOING TO CRY

I seriously thought I failed it and that I’d get a B for the quarter, subsequently for the year, and lose my status.

Yay!

So that scholarship I got has just made my day. I’ll be volunteering for 4 hours a week with an inner city elementary school, helping to incorporate science into the classroom. In the end, I get $4500 a year, making $18000. I am completely shocked and elated. 

And now I’ve just got a few sentences left on my paper and I feel really confident about it.

On top of that, Chris is coming over tomorrow! I’ve missed him a lot and I’m making dinner for him tomorrow evening. Yay!